Wednesday, December 7, 2011

It's been awhile..

Not much too new in the neighborhood. JJ has been doing well. A major decrease in crazy tantrums (haven't seen any nasty ones since October, YAY!) and an overall improvement in his mood and behavior. We moved him from the large daycare center to a home daycare, but I'm not happy about the home placement. Luckily, I found a small center in town and can switch him there in January. He is also starting preschool in town three mornings a week next Monday and I think that should go okay. They'll get to see what a bundle of fun he can be in a group environment!

We've also had no birth family contact since Nov 4 which I think is a huge thing. I've started a facebook for him for birth family which has given me a huge window in his life, his birth family, and what things would look like if he was still there. We're going to see Tummy Mummy again in January and meet baby brother A again (he will be almost a year old!). He is very cute and we'll have to pick out some gifts for him.

The worst part about moving daycare was having to say goodbye to baby brother. :( It's been hard, probably harder for me, and Jacob had some nasty nightmares post-move. But we're moving beyond it. It was time to say goodbye. It was time to let our whole family just officially grieve his loss and move on. He will forever be loved by us and be part of our family (his pictures will always be on our wall) but it's time to let Jacob grow up. And move from being JJ to Jacob.

Speaking of, our adoption date is SET!!! December 22. We can't wait!!! He will finally be my forever son, there will be no more fears of someone taking him away from me, and birth contact will happen on my choice. Life is pretty good. Jacob turned 4, he is singing more, he is trying to learn to count, he can totally dress himself, and he loves to read. He's a pretty amazing little guy! Autism has tried to get in our way, but we're not going to let it. I am going to fight tooth and nail to get him some services (luckily starting a new job so he can access some autism supports now) so he can be the best little him he can be.

Hopefully I'll get to updating this a little more frequently. On baby making news, I'm in the wait from IUI number 8. What a ridiculous process this has been. Really hoping this one sticks. The numbers all looked awesome and everything lined up perfectly. Just a matter of time, waiting, and prayers. So, fingers crossed December is our month all around!!